Christmas considerations

J is thinking about whether he wants this for Christmas. I think it is cool. :)

I'd like this and this as well but holy heck they are pricey!

And while I have a post labeled correctly I'll also stick on here that last night while attempting to watch fireworks the kiddos discovered a constellation that they named the Tyce constellation. Perhaps you can see why?




Oh and more moon stuff to share . . .



credits

Jaden asks a question

I showed him this gif



and we discussed many things about it. Then he asked in his sweet little boy voice, "Are we ever going to see the other side of the moon?" to which I replied, "Not here on Earth. You'll have to travel to space to see the other side." He walked away saying, "Awwww."

Fourth of July commentary

It seems that after every way-emotional roller coaster ride a nap overcomes me and I awake a lot less tired and a lot less insane. Though I also feel just a little drunk. Wheeee.


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Conversation:

Me: Everyone get your clothes/shoes on. We're going to see fireworks.
Tyce: (very riled) you get my clothes
Me: yes, I'll help you get your clothes
Tyce: (stomps off, elbows literally flying, to his room to get clothes and returns) Here is my shirt and pants. You put them on me. (hands the clothes to me)
Me: (overwhelmed with the sweetness of this child but amused with his choices) You are so sweet! You went and got your shirt and pants! But Tyce these are too hot. I'll get you some better ones. (The shirt was long sleeved and the shorts were Jaden's.)
Tyce: (touching the clothes) They not hot?
Me: (melted by the cuteness of him) Oh sweetie I love you so much! (smooch attack)
Tyce: (confused but happy)


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I'm wondering what that dude at the swimming pool was thinking when he was flirting with me while I continually flashed my wedding ring at him! I was amused to see him leave tail tucked between his legs as his wife/girlfriend/exwife/whatever showed up and pulled on his leash. Moreover, WHY did my neighbor find it amusing to leave me stuck there with that bozo. GRRRRR.

I hate being single.

Moving to Canada is still on the list of things to consider

http://politicalticker.blogs.cnn.com/2009/07/03/palin-to-step-down-not-seeking-re-election/

Who wants to move with me??? Anyone? Anyone?

Pep talking

I'm feeling dreadfully sorry for myself. NEED TO SNAP OUT OF THIS. Life is good. Life is fine. All the challenges ahead are going to be fun to solve. This is where life gets interesting!!! Just take them one challenge at a time and eats lots of chocolate. LOTS of chocolate.

SEND MORE CHOCOLATE!!

(Sorry. Sometimes typing things out loud makes them easier.)

Must get moving. Must must must.

Oh, Dale. I need a kick in the arse. Hello! Don't let me down!!!

Longest/hardest 2 mo of my life

It is getting better. But it is still unbearable at times. If only the images of the day would stop popping into my head. If only I weren't so jealous of those people who still have their hubby. If only I didn't get angry at people who complain about the stupidest things. I'm TRYING to be all Zen about this. But it is very challenging. Hopefully this is just a phase of mourning that will pass. I don't want to be jealous of and angry at my friends. I want to be happy for and supportive of them.

I need to just accept the path I'm on as my choosing. I knew this could happen and I need to just make peace with it. Being angry about my circumstances is absolutely the wrong attitude. I am so blessed. Not as blessed as before, but still very blessed. I just need to stay focused on what still is.

Dale would not want me to sit around being petty. *I* do not want me to sit around being petty. I'm ok with sad but not angry and cold.

I'm going to spend the day today with friends at the pool. Like I did yesterday and the day before. It helps so much to have my friends to spend time with. I'm so blessed.

Memories of Dale

While doing Field Day yesterday and today, I'm reminded of so many things about Dale that I love. Of course he primarily just loved talking to and being with people--that is real the love of amateur radio operators (also known as hams.) They are geeky by nature but the most lovable geeks you'll ever know.

Dale loves ham radio--dinking with the radios and the antennas, discussing which gadget/gizmo is best for what band/functionality, futzing with broken stuff to make it work or working stuff to make it broken. You know, men type things. He didn't like talking on the radios however, that was my job.

Dale shared his love of radios with Jaden, not nearly as much as he would have liked I'm sure. I hope he looked down on us the last few days and smiled as Jaden made his first HF contacts. His little face just glowed. If we ever get an HF antenna, J and I will be ADDICTED to contesting. Al and Ray enjoyed it too but their soft little girl voices are so hard to understand. Someday, they won't be little anymore. Plenty of time for that.

When I think of Dale and radios I remember the first hurricane relief work we did. We waited in LA for hurricane Ivan to pass safely by then we moved in behind it. The roads were a total wreck as far west as Mobile though Pensacola took the direct hit.

We had our GPS hooked up to our TV above the driver's seat in the RV and it directed us down the roads when all the roads signs had long since been blown away. Taking the overpasses and bridges was, um, exciting since you couldn't see the other side in the darkness. The down power lines made navigating a real challenge since the RV doesn't back up with the "toad" attached.

When we finally made it safely to the EOC, we were welcomed with opened arms and dropped jaws. Dale loved his RV and his radios and any opportunity to mix the two made him as happy as any one person could be. Especially since he also brought his entire family with him. Life was PERFECT for us. Dale genuinely wanted to help people. For him the reward was getting to meet all those people along the way. Hear their stories. Learn about their lives.

We didn't really know what we were doing when we set out but that didn't matter. Neither of us cared. We just wanted to go and do whatever they would let us. And they did let us. I think we helped considerably, at least they said we did, but they helped us too. They gave us a wonderful opportunity to be alive, to let us connect with our world. For that I thank the guys of the EOC in Pensacola.

73
AD5IQ and AA5DW together forever

I love you Dale